I read recently about how a lady who was struggling with chronic anger immersed herself in the Psalms, keeping a journal and writing down everything she learned about God. Instead of focusing on what or who she was angry with, or on what was wrong with herself, she worked at focusing on God. Within a few months, her life had turned around, (and consequently her relationships) because her concept of God had been so changed by finding the truth about Him in His Word. No longer was fear, resulting in anger, keeping her life crippled. She knew that God cared for her, loved her, and was all things to her.
I guess so many extra stresses in my life lately, which seems to be one cause of the weakness that keeps flaring up, are making me turn to God extra. I decided to follow that lady's example, last week and this week. I am trying to focus on something from what I read in Scripture in my devotions that day, something about God. It has really helped me to focus on Him instead of on the thoughts that cause me so much agony.
The first day's focus was:
God is my strength, my fortress, and my shield. When those agonizing thoughts would come, I would remember, "God is my shield!" and the thoughts would stay at bay. Just as the castle Crystal and I went to last week is a strong shelter from the elements, so God is a shelter for us from the trials that want to bring us down.
The second day's focus was:
God is enough. I read in Psalm 119 about turning from covetousness, and what does that teach us about God? He is enough! We don't have to covet or be jealous of the things other people have because God is enough. I am not usually tempted to be jealous of other people's things, but I am tempted to be envious of vacations, babysitting, and help for moms. Things like that. Especially when I have just talked to my husband about needing a vacation, and he decides to paint our house the next week! The long vacations you have just recently seen or heard your friends and relatives having are suddenly staring you in the face as well as the week of your house torn up being painted while you are minding seven children and making meals for twelve people--possibly without a stove. I am human, too, and I am not saying I don't need a vacation. I do! But when circumstances prevent it for the time being, God is enough.
Another day's focus, based on Revelation 21, was
God is rich! How can we think we are poor if we have God, who is so rich, whose streets are gold? How can Danny be poor when he has a banana and is allowed to eat it on top of the entertainment center in the middle of the livingroom while we get ready to paint? It is all about attitude!
The third day's focus was:
God is my sunshine! That was the day I had a mother-daughter time with Crystal at Glen Eyrie. Truly, it was a day of sunshine.
Today, I opened to Psalm 28, and
God is my Rock stood out to me. Just like those mountain sheep above, which we saw at Glen Eyrie, are safe when they hide in the rocks behind and above them, so we have God as our refuge. I wrote a poem of praise to Him in response to the words of Scripture and thoughts I had about that.
God is My Rock!
by Anna
God is my Rock, a living stone,
Hearing my prayers before His throne.
Before all hope within me dies,
This Rock has ears; this rock has eyes!
This Rock supports my flailing soul,
When o'er my heart the high waves roll.
A fortress from the devil's darts,
Hiding the treasure of my heart.
Yet is this Rock alive and feels
The pain that makes my heart to reel.
A Rock that feels, one that can touch,
A living Rock--this is too much
To understand, and yet I know
Beyond a doubt, beyond my woe,
This living Rock, this living stone
Is God my Saviour, all my own!
Rock of my heart, I do, I must
Place upon You all my hope and trust!