Tuesday, January 27, 2015

In the Hollow of His Hand

Have you ever thought about what it meant to be in the hollow of His hand?
 
 Frail, fragile creatures of dust that we are--
we need a place of safety--of warmth--of rest. 
It's not easy to think of ourselves in this place of rest
when we are trying to perform to other people's specifications--or even our own.
It's easier to think about our faults and failures, our weaknesses and inabilities,
of which every man on earth has plenty,
and which the enemy will make sure to exaggerate and emphasize and remind us about.
Most of the time, the enemy would like to have us picturing ourselves 
like a cat treed by those rascally, barking dogs.
He'd like us to think that our back is against a wall--
or, worse--against a cliff--and the dogs are coming after us.
 Talk about insecurity!
 Neither people nor devils very often take time to remind us that 
"You are in the hollow of His hand.
You are in the shelter of His arms!"
 If we could get a hold of that,
we might actually begin our day with courage, smile at the next person we meet, and find strength for our daily duties.
Instead, we find ourselves all twisted up in knots when we are trying to have our morning devotions.
We have to choose to find a word for us in Scripture--
like the one where Christ wept, "O...how oft would I have gathered you, 
as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings!"
 It all depended on whether they "would" be gathered, or not!
Jerusalem's men and women, grandmas and grandpas, husbands and wives, young men and maidens
refused to be gathered.
They preferred to find their own way and do their own thing. 
They would rather climb the swing set and sit there in mid air...
than be gathered safely under His wings.
 We can go to God in our prayer time, feeling that He is far away,
and that there must be something wrong with us,
feeling very, very alone,
When the truth is that He has promised to be with us always--
even to the end of the world.
We do not have to walk this path alone.
 There are hundreds of promises to lean on,
and seven thousand brothers and sisters, figuratively speaking, who have not bowed the knee to 
the gods of this world.
 We can lift our heads from the icy shadow of doubt and despair,
and look to Him, knowing that He is near.
 We don't have to dwell in the shadows,
 when we can bask in the sunshine!
 There are times when I've gone to my knees in my morning devotions
and just ended up asking,
"Dear God, what is wrong with me?"
Those are the kind of mornings that really you just need to get your head out from 
being buried in the overstuffed chair, and just go on out to the kitchen.
Pour yourself a cup of tea...
 and have a picnic in January.
 So what if you have been, at times, a silly goose.
There are plenty of other silly geese out there, too. 
Like that person next to you acting so pious.
 It was the lost sheep the shepherd brought home on his shoulder,
not the ones who were chewing their cuds righteously in the fold.
 And it's the broken and torn,
and the weary and worn...
 that He chooses to mend and polish and shine.
He can turn the geese into swans,
and the ashes into beauty.
 All in the hollow of His hand.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Cow Tails and Pork Ribs

A little over a week ago, the dad of the ranch brought home our homegrown meat from the butcher.
We had hoped to turn some of the pig into sausage, but the meat processor in town didn't return our call. So we decided to cut up the meat ourselves.  It saved money that way, too.
Here they are looking in the book that tells how to make the proper cuts for pork roasts and ribs, etc.
Jonathan pulls half a pig out of the bag.
And Rose helps.
Our cow had been sent on from the butcher to the meat cutter out near Calhan, but we had asked for all the liver, heart, etc. Here we are taking a look at the heart.
I cut the heart into pieces to freeze. Perhaps we will grind it later and add it to other ground beef.
We also cut the liver into pieces to slice later. It was too much to try to do it all that evening.
We had also asked the butcher to save the cow tail for us. I cut this into chunks to use for soup bone.
Ever price soup bones at the store? That's why I saved the cow tail. It's good soup bone. 
No one will ever know it's tail soup.
Jonathan gets a kick out of catching me off guard on the camera--
since I do that to other people!
It's okay! We have so much fun taking pictures of fun, beautiful, or unusual things to share on my blog or just for fun for ourselves that we just tease about it. 
Notice I said, "fun, beautiful, or unusual."
Does that describe me???  Well, at least the "unusual" part!  Ha ha.
Trying to decide how to cut this pork.
Timmy cuts bits of meat off of bones to turn into sausage with our meat grinder.
Carrie found a recipe online for sausage, and is finding and measuring spices.
Several helping that evening.
Carrie mixing the spice into the ground meat after Dad puts it through the grinder.
The grinder kept clogging up, even though we had sharpened the blade.
Wonder what this bone is supposed to represent?
Back in the schoolroom, I was grading papers and working on report cards.
Carrie had filled three vases with the huge bouquet Jonathan had brought home for me that weekend
when I had been suffering a lot with some physical issues. Above, there is a beautiful vase on my school desk. And below is the bouquet on the kitchen table.
It seemed like the flowers only got more and more beautiful for days.
Perhaps it was the love that bought and brought them.
Perhaps the beauty was in the eyes of the beholders.
Either way--what a blessing those lovely flowers were to this Pennsylvania country girl who gets so hungry for beauty.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Riding Precariously or Resting Peacefully?

 I couldn't help trying to capture this little neighbor cat on camera.
It reminds me of how tottery it is when we try to balance our lives on people's opinions--
either others' or even our own.
It can get kind of precarious.
We could sit up high there dwelling on some flattery or compliment dished out to us, thinking we're pretty smart or good or grand, based on all the people who agree with us.
But to base our lives on people's opinions is not really all that comfortable, to tell the truth,
because in a whip stitch, tables could turn and someone is criticizing us and disagreeing point blank, and we could tumble down the other side...
and end up in the trash can--all because of other people's negative opinions.
But we don't have to teeter either on the fence
or in the trash--
just because someone chews us up one side and back down the other...
or kisses our toes because we did something special.
What really matters is what God thinks about us.
And if we are living our life according to right principles, with a good conscience before Him,
we can rest in a safe, secure spot--
even if it is right on top of a puzzle that we do not understand.
Because His smile is the one that matters.
We sometimes don't even know how to judge ourselves. That is part of the puzzle.
Sometimes our poor humanity gets in our way a lot.
We wonder if we are just human or if we really are as bad as we and others think.
But that is when we must go to God--maybe steal away to a quiet place,
and just pour out our heart to Him.
Because He is a refuge for us.
And in that safe refuge, He can let us know just what He thinks of us.
And that is the basis for truth, and for what to build our lives on.

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Photo of Morley Clan at Thanksgiving

My nephew Ezra Morley sent me this picture he had taken of the Morley clan at Thanksgiving.
I had tried to download it but then I couldn't find it on the computer! 
Well, today when I tried to download a few pictures from my sister Dorcas, I discovered where the photos from emails were hiding!
So finally, here is the long overdue photo of my family clan that got together in PA last Thanksgiving.
The only ones missing are Iva's family and Hoshea's family. 
Most of us have our spouses beside or behind us!
Click on the photo to upsize it if you want to look for details and who's who.

My Sister Dorcas's 50th Birthday

My oldest sister Dorcas emailed us photos of her 50th birthday. 
I don't think she looks fifty, do you?
Here she is with her youngest of four daughters, Jenelle, whom the Lord was so gracious to as a baby
when she had surgery to correct a hole in her heart.
But really, aren't we all born with holes in our hearts?
 A "God-sized" hole in our heart--a vacuum that only He can fill?
But there are other holes in our hearts as well:
holes that can only be filled
by love,
by family,
and by friends.
Holes that can only be filled
by beauty
and joy 
and God's creation.
 Holes that can only be filled by 
purpose,
something fulfilling or purposeful to do even when life has turned upside down, or when there is more pain than pleasure.
 Holes that can only be filled by music,
and singing with grace in our hearts to the Lord--
especially when the future does not look real bright, and we realize our only real hope is in God.
It's such a comfort to sing hymns and to play our hearts out at the piano.
Holes that can only be filled by forgiveness.
Holes only filled by realizing that there are some things we cannot control--
some holes that man can never mend,
and releasing them to the Lord,
letting His mystery bag fill the gaping holes in our heart...
holes that only 
grace
can fill.

God Keeps Making Our Fawn a Blessing

A day or two ago, I got a call from our pastor's wife who thought I'd like to know that our fawn is bringing joy not just to us and ...